When I was 29, in 1980…so long ago that Dinosaurs walked the earth…for the first time(but not the last)in my life, life itself decided that it should pick up a 2 by 4 and smack me upside my head. I know…many of your heads are well acquainted with that same 2 by 4.(can I get an ‘Amen’)..and , let’s just say that I did not handle it well…and if not for a friend who has since died I don’t know where I’d be. But that’s another story.
I was lost..just lost so I went to the hospital to visit the mother of a friend. I don’t know why…something to do…I was a self-pitying ass at that point… and sat on the floor in her hospital room because her two sisters were visiting…and I told them all about the 2 by 4 and my head and how I didn’t know what I was going to do and …yada yada…and the woman I was there to visit(I remembered this earlier today)looked at me, and with her sisters nodding their assent…said to me…”you’re young, you’re smart…you can do anything you want to do, can’t you.” They were all in their 70’s.. well, I got up off that floor, hugged all three women, straightened my shoulders, walked out that door and have never looked back.
Easy life then? Hell no! I’ve made the acquaintance of that damn 2 by 4 more times than I would have liked since then…but each time I remembered what Naki O’Brien said to me…and I got up, dusted myself off and fought the hell back.
I was looking around on the internet tonight because I have let stress get the better of me(temporarily)and found this quote from Maya Angelou…and she says what Naki said…and I remembered..
I may not be 29 anymore(soon to be 65)but I don’t know where I’d be if I hadn’t gone to see Naki and she hadn’t given me that advice. You don’t know who you’re going to meet who will tell you the straight shit that you need to hear, especially when you’re on the floor with a black eye from that damn 2 by 4…you just don’t..but I did..and I’m still here…I may no longer be young on paper, but I’m still smart, and I can still damn well do anything I want to do if I put my mind to it.
By the way, I went home that day, enrolled to study Geology, got a book and taught myself Algebra, Trig and Calculus…and beat that 2 by 4. I’ve been knocked down..but I’ve always gotten back up…and I need to remind myself of that. I need to remember how I got here.